Hello everyone... I know i've not been posting in quite a while but however here I am again. Anyway, I was sick for the past few days. Down with sore troat, followed by running nose and now cough. Haha.. Terrible right. Anyway, I'm on the road to recovery so I'm doing fine.

I was looking through some sites and suddenly I wondered how would things be if I ever died. Would things be all the same like last time? Would anyone miss me? How would my parents cope without me? And while writting this, I'm sheding some tears at the same time. Life is too short. That's why I'm planning a perfect funeral for myself. I want everyone to be happy at the funeral, a smile has to be on everyone's face. Thinking that my departure would be a perfect gift for me myself. Although I'm a Buddhist, I would like to have a different kind of funeral. First and formost, nobody is allowed to wear black. Everyone has to be in white or either some pastel colours. (I love white). I would want to be dressed in a very beautiful dress, and having a flower crown on my head. My makeup would be simple and natural, reflecting the person I am.

Music would be a soothing music. Not hard core but there has to be a chorus inside. I don't want to be cremated, I want to be burried. I want to be preserved in the ground where flowers would grow all around me. Most important, the day i'm burried, it has to be a bright sunny day.

There's another option, instead of being burried, i could be cremated, and my ashes would be taken to the sea and be thrown into the sea where I could swim and see the water world. Those who know me well, you guys will know how much i love fishes. The perfect ending would be somebody reading the poem I wrote.

Smiling and shining,
I've always wondered,
I've always pondered,
How would things be,
When I'm gone.

Love is something,
I've always wanted,
I've always given,
I've always fulfilled,
Therefore, may you;
Love me from;
The very bottom of your heart.

May I always remain,
In your heart,
No matter how much,
you love,
you hate,
you despise,
the person I am,
as no matter what you do,
I will always love you.