hey.. how is everyone doing out there? By the way, Happy Belated Christmas. New Year is next. What's on the list? Its year end and 2005 is coming. But why do i still feel like shit, upset? How hard is it to return a phone call? One text in two days? Pretty hard I guess. Nothing is more upsetting than worrying for another and yet the other party doesn't give a shit about you. Am I supposed to go out and carry on with just a smiley face all the time when nobody knows i'm hurting so much inside? How is it to carry on when all you want is to know the reason for what's going on? How is it to put up a smile so much that you want to cry but yet you know you can't? To whom do you run to? To whom who is willing to lend a shoulder? To whom you think will be there for you but yet isn't? I know life is never fair but a year should never end this way. Well, anyway, happy new year to you all out there. =)

hihi.. i'm back.. its been a while... i was away and splattie was here and yet he didn't update. well.. what to do. no choice. its all right. Just to update, i'm sick like a cow. Having flu, soretroat with flam and a slight fever. How bad can it get. And although i was very very healthy for the past few weeks, i attended NOT EVEN A SINGLE RAVE! How sad can i be? Well, its allright because i refuse to get stuck in human jam and car jams! I was downtown last weekend and at fuckin' 3 am i got stuck in 4 jams! Fuckin' hell.

Well, i actualy have more to update but i'm just too lazy and tired. Well, that's all for now folks. See yah. ciaoz