Lethargic...

Another reminder to myself... NEVER ever sleep too much when you don't get enough sleep in the first place. Been busy doing shows here and there and I kinda slept too much yesday and today. Now, I'm feeling tired and my body feels heavy. Good news would be I've been offered a full time job with this current company that I'm freelancing for. Before anything, I've got to discuss with Mr. Big Boss himself. The good thing would be I'll definitely learn a lot from them. Bad thing would be it's gonna be really really tiring. We will see how it goes...

A shout out to Mr. Chi-Bai@Halloween Boy@Batboy.... Happy Birthady to you. May you spread terror and fear to those who have met you and to those who knows you. :D

On a lighter note, I was thinking a certain pattern and a typical behaviour wouldn't happen, well, it did. Don't you just hate when you know a certain behaviour is bound to link from one pattern to another and when it happens it gives you flashbacks? It's such a typical result that you can't help it but you start to hate it? Hmmmm... So typical... so typical... damn... heheh :D

Cheers...

Flashback...

Last night I had a flashback on quite a lot of things about the past. Scary.... I'm just curious, whether if it's a scenario that occurs only when there's a change of event. Having to understand everyone has a different approach to things but when it comes to one particular event it turns out to be the same. How come? Not sure really.

Case 1:
Have you ever come to a point that you've never done a single thing to take advantage of a person of the opposite sex? In fact, trying to avoid them being uncomfortable... and the end result, you get them telling you, you shouldn't do this and that. More like trying to find faults in you when there isn't any?

Case 2:
The effort. You've done your part. Explaining and proving that you've already done your part to get things back on track by spicing up the friendship. Using words and fun to bring that person back to the comfort zone of friends....but the other party seems to be giving you a cold shoulder or maybe being hostile to you. Is it because they had the impression that you're not able to do it? and hoping that you'll screw it up? so that they get a chance to say you're doing things wrong again? I'm not to sure myself also... hehe

Case 3:
Being defensive. When you agreed and admit your mistakes and you try to work with that person to improve situations between the both of you but the person denies being everything that you say about them but for a fact they've done it and not being able to admit it. You get an explanation that is different then the first explanation = contradiction....

Case 4:
My favourite case. When you were once close as friends you've talk about the same things above and they hate it when it occurs to them BUT they do it in the end. Which is interesting. They hate it when people do it to them, but why they do it to others? Especially after the amount of complains they give and you've never done anything like that. Weird huh? hehe...

Case 5:
Decided to add one more case :P. When your intuition tells you something odd is happening. You decide to chill and not think about till it becomes a routine. Then you wanna get a confirmation, they say it's not like that and you are thinking too much.. Wokay then... and after a long time it's still the same and u ask again. The reply this time is "yes.. I was being like that". So much for kena blame for thinking too much... right.... hahaha.

There are still many cases I'd love to share but kinda feeling abit sleepy now.. hahaha! I've actually experience a scenario when the person apologizes for giving me hell and knows that it's wrong. I'm like.. WOW!.. apology accepted and respect given.. but... suddenly that person does it again.. and apologizes again... and does it again. In the end, I'm like... u know you're doing it.. why keep doing it again? Nonsense.. hahahah!

Kinda fun seeing this sort of behaviours. Interesting kan? :D Have a feeling a lot of people go through this as well..... *peace*. ^_^V Open conversation...... feel free to comment :D

Raya...

To those celebrating Raya, Selamat Hari Raya! Kinda late but it's still on so yeah... hahaha! Haven't been getting enough sleep lately not to sure why but it's really making me feel groggy. The feeling of being awake, alert and groggy is not a very nice combination la all I can say. Fun bit would be one of my mates is back! Been hanging out with him and another fella. It's been good. Met up Mr. Eugene Ong (main man who got alldatjazz.com started) for "dim-sum" this morning which was good. Catching up with things relating to life, music and laughs. Called a number of my raya friends, having to hear their joyful voices especially the once that I've lost touch with, including a barista from San. Fran. Coffee. Was nice hearing from them again. Well one didn't sound too good, was just plain quiet and it wasn't for raya wishes. It's always nice getting a feed of joy from people.

Having dinner at a friends place was good too. Had some spicy chicken dish, forgot what it was called already. It was just amazing. Couldn't help myself and just kept on eating and eating especially the gravy. Man it was sooooo good! Friends mom even enjoyed seeing me eat. She said it's such a nice feeling seeing someone enjoying her cooking. I seem to please a lot moms when they see me eat. HAHAHA! I really enjoy good rich food. :D

Will be away for work from 22 till the 25. JB here I come. Not something that I'm looking forward too but I'm starting to do things for the money. The importance of cash sucks. Been doing a lot of things for free, giving out some for good, spending it to cheer. Money can be earned and spending it to those that I care about is priceless. The joy on their face, priceless. Those who deserve, those who's been there for me. Even if it's not the money that concerns them but the fact of using money for entertainment and FOOD! HAHAHHAHA!

I'm not sure what I'm writing about cause I'm feeling a bit phased out right now so.... yeah... hahahah! cheers! :D

I Need To Kick My Own Ass...

Been bumming too much... I NEED TO KICK MY ASS AND START GETTING SOME STUFF DONE!!!!!!!!

Must get all this done...

- get more live shows
- start the damn t-shirt business
- get the damn website up
- break beat album
- especially my assignments

I MUST NOT BE LAZY ANYMORE!!!!!!!
*ROAAAAAAARRRRRRR*

I've been giving myself to much excuses
I need someone to stand by my side with a whip..... Hmmmmm.... which may lead to another thing.... HAAHHAHAAH!
FEELING DAMN HYPED UP LATELY
SO... IT'S TIME TO DO SOME BUTT KICKING!!!!!!... to myself....
HYPER I AM LATELY!!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

Lost In Translation...

Had a conversation with a friend last night. Came up with an interesting topic which was about how people see themselves and talk about themselves. Having to speak about yourself and letting people know about your character gives a brief introduction about you. The thing is, is it really you? Actions speak louder than words, that's what they say and having contradicting words and action makes you wonder. "I thought you said you were like that.", "That's what you said the other day.", the few things that will be in your wondering mind. Why do we look for consistency in a character? Simply because we look up to a person who speak about themselves confidently, we look for that person they speak about in them. May it be negative or positive it leaves the same impression. Do you remember the things that you say you are to people? Do you act the way you are? We tend to remember when you speak about yourself because it leaves a good impression about you and we tend to noticed the contradictions if it goes the other way.

Talking about your positive and negative side is never a bad thing. Talking about your negative character will allow people to be prepared when it happens. Admitting your negative side and trying to build something positive is a good thing. Not an easy thing to do but at least you try and you're not ashamed of it. After all, no one is perfect. Rather than leaving a positive impression and doing something negative in the end makes you wonder about that person again.

Being honest, may be a good thing and a bad thing. To some it helps to know more about your character. If it's something negative, think about it and try to fix it if you know it's an issue that you see in yourself. The thing about telling people to be honest with you, they may take it for granted subconciously. They tend to tell you that you're doing this wrong and that wrong eventhough you're doing it right. Worst bit is one minute it could be this and the next is that. When you open up your doors wanting people to be honest with you, just be careful. Don't change yourself for who you are to the extend that it gives the other person a control over your. If you can find an answer to back it up then you're safe but it matters if the other party is willing to listen or not and reconsider your thoughts.

Communication is a two way thing. It doesn't help when someone wants to be the right all the time. It doesn't help when the person contradicts him or herself. It doesn't help either if a person is too confident about themselves. It doesn't help when you expect someone to know what's on your mind. Communication breaks down when there's no explanation and having to contridict yourself in every explanation.

note: What I've wrote is my own opinion. I may be right I may be wrong. Comments are welcome, after all, it's a blog! hehehe :D

The Cure...

Just realized a couple of things lately. I think I'm finally cured from this stress issue that has been bothering me. I blogged about how my neck was affecting me badly but I missed one more problem that I never thought it would have contributed to my stress-ness.

MY FREAKIN' GLASSES!

How did I figure this out? After visiting the chiropractor and getting my neck fixed, I realised that there were couple of times I felt tired and stressed out again even though I didn't feel the strain on my neck. Having to change my glasses a couple of days back, I also realised that I haven't been squinting my eyes because everything is clearer now. Not sure how to explain this in detail but my old pair of glasses is pretty much screwed up, well, that pair was about 4-5 years old? HAHAHA! :D I've lasted 2 nights till 6am in the morning and not having to feel uber lethargic and moody the next day. Man, I didn't know there were so many other things that could have affected my mood. Scarry. Well there's one more other thing that I know would definitely make me feel fresh if I stop but... hehehe. We'll see how it goes... :P

Champion I Am...

Was doing a favour for the Mr. Halloween today. Went to MBPJ to settle his "saman" and i nicely went to tekan "Bayaran" and waited la as usual. Half an hour later it was my turn. I approached the counter and I was told that I need to get the damn documents from another counter. Went there, he told me to tekan "F" which was for his counter. So I did. Nicely settled everything I drove back and wanting to have my cup of coffee badly. Went through the exit from Federal Highway, my car start to jerk as I was turning left towards St. Paul's church. Die! My car went dead. NO PETROL SIAL!!!!!!!!!! Picked up the phone called my petrol saviour Melvin. He came to the rescue. Today I shall take note on something really really important....

A NOTE TO MYSELF:

CARS NEED PETROL TO MOVE YOU FOOL!

This is the second time that happen and Melvin is the petrol boy. Call his hotline if you need petrol! LOL!

p.s. - I IS CHAMPIONS I TELL YOUS! CHAMPIONS! *flex muscles*.... *peace*

Insane...

Bought a CD couple of days back, it was TOOL's third album Aenima. Been searching high and low for that CD and finally I got it. There were a couple of republished CD's on that album but it didn't come with the holographic CD case. I was in Rock Corner browsing through some CD's and it was just sitting there. First thing that came to my mine was.... "FUCK!". Been listening to it for a couple of days and one song struck me hard. It's called Eulogy. Why? I'm the sort of person who listen to music first. Lyrics don't really matter to me. As long as the energy is there, it will hit me real hard. Listening to it night in the car something freaky happen. The only music experience that NEVER happen to me, happen last night. Let's seee how do I put it... hmmm... erm... I almost cried. The energy, dynamics, tone and the impact really hit me sial. Scary as it is, I'm not sure whether it's a good sign or not. Am I taking my music too seriously? Or is it good to feel that way. Hmmmm..... :P

What about Eulogy that's so great? My opinion would be when the song starts aftert the intro. The "bang" sounded so tight! Not tight as a band but more like when you hear an explosion in a cinema. Yes that impact that makes you jump... well... this made me twitch. It was awesome. The mix was just incredible. I had a conversation with Adil last night. I told him that I just realize the best sound design for albums do come from metal/rock bands. The freedom to create and manipulate every instrument to make it sound good. To give that punch. It came to a point that I really wanna mix something, a rock/metal band which would give that impact and energy. It's time to start getting some bands to give me their raw tracks to remix them the way I want as an experiment, for my own portfolio. I need to get it done quick before i lose my drive.

I'm gonna list down a few more names that has good mix...

1. Korn - Life Is Peachy
2. Tool - Aenima
3. The Crystal Method - Tweekend
4. Soundgarden - Superunknown
5. ZZ Top - Rhythmeen
6. 311 - (most of their tracks)
7. Rage Against The Machine - Evil Empire

I will always remember when the day Rozhan told me this, "Dude! Stop listening to mp3's! It'll fuck up your hearing!". Will never forget that lesson he thaught me. If it wasn't for that teaching I wouldn't be able to appreciate my music to this extend. Thanks bro! :)