Ctrl+Alt+Del...

At times I wish I had a built in panic button in me. The sort that would reset my mind and body.. the soul... don't really have to reset since it's working fine with music. I'm sitting here infront of my "babes" trying to get some work done in iThai. End of the day I'm just blogging on my "babes". Inspiration hasn't kicked in yet. Let's see what I've got to do for this month...

Work :
1. Reza's show in NBT (done)
2. Website for a dance studio (i'll let you guys know when it's up)
3. Another website (meeting will be tomorrow)
4. Music & sound samples for another website
5. Sound consultation/services (a new place, something new for me)
6. My own project
7. Another project still in discussion
8. Music project (this is gonna be REALLY interesting)

Had a short meeting/discussion last night with the "chi-bai". Gave me so many ideas to think about. Damn Starbucks closed so early. Ended up standing by my car to discuss further. WE NEED MORE CAFES AROUND THAT OPEN TILL LATE! Poor people like me only get to do work at night! I think I've just got so many things to concentrate on till my attention span is at critical stage.. haha!

Ctrl+Alt+Del on the mind to have fresh ideas for design and body cause my all my muscles still kejang... I'm having this uncomfortable feeling lately. Not the sort that I'm looking forward too.. hmmm.... I hate my damn intuition.

Before I go off, I've got something to say, my mom is just.... adorable....

splatspit : Mom, sent your car to the workshop already.. but still got problem..

mom : Then why didn't you send it back again? You said need to do something one?

splatspit : Do what?

mom : There.. you said need to ermm... you know... to... T - U - N - E something one..

splatspit : huh??????

mom : aiyah... need to do some you know... T - U - N - I - N - G....

splatspit : *pauses*... *grins*... what is it again?

mom : YOU KNOW MOMMY CANNOT PRONOUNCE THE WORD... T - U - N -E .. and you still wanna ask!?

splatspit : WAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

Yes.. my dear mom cannot pronounce TUNE.. she pronounces it as... TWIN... WAHHAHAHA... I EVIL |-D

Surreal...

Probably got the worst news to start off my month for 2008. I was really hoping that I won't get any stories like that this year. I guess I was wrong. My "brother" told me today a friend of mine passed away a couple of weeks back. I'm not sure of the exact date cause he got it from another friend of his. I was just shocked, stoned and speechless. There's a story behind this friend of mine. The sort that I would consider a very unique friendship that I have with her. It's just weird knowing that she's not around anymore. I had to get a confirmation from another friend to see if it was real. I even googled her name to see if there was any blog post about her departure. Not even sure whether I wanted to get the truth or just hoping that it's the wrong person. A lot of memories just flooded my mind and the unique thing is, it's nothing visual because...

About 10 to 11 years back, I had a casual chat with someone online through IRC. Her name was Shu Zanne. We swapped house numbers online and one fine day she called me thinking that I was another Leonard, which happen to be my primary school friend. Since that day our friendship sparked. We were phone buddies. Having to call each other up everyday without fail. I think I was 16 or 17 then. She was in Form 3 or 4 I think. We were constantly on the phone all the time till I was in APIIT. I think that was the only time we met officially after 3 to 4 years. It was more like a pen pal thing going on between us but instead of writting letters we call each other up. That's why I can't recall anything visual. I just had her voice constantly playing back in my mind today with all the stories she told me. We'll share everything from family, to friends, to love life stories on the phone. We'll mention names as if we hung out together. Whether it was late at night or early in the morning we'll always have time to chat on the phone, after class during our high school and college years. The reason why I would consider our friendship unique. A close friend that I've only met once and the rest was just phone calls.

Since I don't know her friends but just names she mentioned back when she was still in high school. I was not informed about her departure. I just wish I knew earlier on so that I could at least attend her funeral. We kinda lost touch when she was in UK till today. Manage to catch up with her on the phone when she got back from Melbourne a few times. The last conversation we had was last year when I told her my plans of going to Melbourne and thinking of staying there if I had the chance, she told me to give her a call when I'm there and she'll discuss with me on how to get my PR and all. I'm still amazed that we were close friends even though we were just having conversations online and on the phone. It's just really weird knowing that she's not around anymore. I guess her friendship made me believe in one thing, it doesn't matter whether you see that person or not, it's the constant conversations that matters. Speaking to a person on the phone does feel like you're out with that person. My close friends do know me for the sort that believes in calls rather than sms's, text or emails. Another reason why I'm the sort that believes long distances relationships will work if both parties do communicate verbally.

Manage to dig up something that she gave me a long time ago. A birthday card for my 19th birthday and a couple of photos of her with her friends and family.


(2000)

(her explaining the events on her photos)

My chest is starting to get heavy after seeing this. Ng Shu Zanne you've been a great friend with a big heart and loads of laughs. Will definitely miss chatting with you on the phone. -= Rest In Peace =-

p.s. - to whoever who comes across this and know where I can find her resting place, do let me know. Just email me at splatspit@gmail.com Thanks...

When the job stops, the brain goes wild...

It's been a good four day rest. Last day of work was on Saturday and it's good thing I stopped cause my eardrums were already ringing. Everything sounded so muffled and I even found difficulty when people were speaking to me. Yeap! It was that bad! I'm slowly seeing improvements, will be avoiding gigs and shows for this whole month.

The past for days was good. I didn't have to rush to work when I was out but there's still a slight "kan-cheong"ness when it hits 8.30pm cause that's the time I normally prepare myself for work. Meetings for the upcoming "project" looks promising. Hopefully it will be ready by the 29th of January. There MIGHT be a soft launch if I have enough money with me la. Donations and sponsors ARE welcome of course *big bloody hint hint*. Kinda excited about it and worried at the same time. We'll see how it goes la. :)

The "penang babysitter" called me yesterday. Man, he got it bad la. I was on a roll! I even gave him a nickname last night. My logic was "What to do, I'm jobless. so my mind is free to come up with more nonsense!". Was out with "to-fu" last night, started sketching on her organizer. I love sketching random stuff. Hell, you know what's even more random? We were talking about Rapunzel later that night. Don't know why but I just said this...

splatspit : "eh... imagine if Rapunzel was this rude Hong Kong girl..."

to-fu : *eating her maggie goreng and sipping her drink*

splatspit : "... and then hor the prince goes to the tower and says "rapunzel, rapunzel... let down your hair..." and then she did..."

to-fu : *still eating her maggie goreng and sipping her drink*

splatspit : "... when the prince started climbing suddenly rapunzel screams... "SEI FEI HAI!!! YOU DAMN KAU HEAVY!!! PAIN LA YOU BITCH!! YOU WANT ME TO DIE IS IT?!?! MAH HAI!"

to-fu : *one hand on mouth trying not to spit her food/drink while laughing*

End... (got long continuation but lazy to type)

Happy 2nd Day of New Year!

I miss the first day on zhe blog. How was it for me? I was working! I brought 2007 along and left it at work. Crowd was crazy! No fun at all siut. Having to get Flying-Kung-Fu-Dancing arms whacking me here and there while trying to monitor how the band sounds from the main dance area was torture with the capital T... and E at the end... Had a nice short family dinner on the the first day which was a couple of hours back. Mom had to open her big moth on job issues comparing my sisters salary and mine! She nicely put words in my mouth saying that I was comparing. First thing I said was "HALLO!!!! WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS?!? YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS COMPARING AND NOW YOU POINT FINGERS AT ME?!".. mom started laughing and said.."but.. but.." I went "BUT WHAT?!" She just went on laughing... celaka betul. This is not the first. Every time me pulak yang kena. Rubbish! -_-

Enough of that nonsense, will be going to negotiate for another job offer tomorrow. HOPE.. it turns out well. If it does also another headache because I've got another one standing by. Leaving this current one cause I treasure my ears and it's my source of income. :\ Don't you just hate it when you got NO job offers there's none and when there is, you have to choose! Keeping me options open. This years resolution NO. 1 "Work hard for the MONEY and leave MR. FUN aside". :) Once I get Decembers pay, it's back to the Magician to fix my neck and shoulder problems... again. Sadness. Always affect my mood and my drive to get things done. :\

Oh... today I got some news as well from someone. After a long chit chat I've got info bout some stuff. As I predicted after analyzing and what not. It actually came true. I get to use "I told you.." again! Depending whether the opportunity is given la. In fact I think it will. It's always the case when I give my opinion about certain things to people and they go against it or doubt it. It's not wrong for them cause I'm not right either. It's just an open discussion. The difference is I get to say "I told you.." because it's behaviors that I come across a lot of times. It's so typical. So common. I can't help but just to let people know about it. Simple fact that I care and I'm NOT using it for my damn advantage. WAKE UP ALREADY! :P New year resolution NO. 2 "Still trying not to be too nice". Not easy since I feel guilt even I'm not in the wrong. Sucks kan? :\

Lastly there's 3 special people in my neighborhood that has been always there for me last year. The once that I get calls often. The once that I get to have a good laugh every time after work. No matter how busy I or they get there's always a time to chat and laugh. Without them, I think I can just put my phone aside la... hahahahah! The "to-fu", "chi-bai", and the "chi-mui". You ROCK my world la wei! Will have a toast soon. Tengah tunggu my pay. :)

That's all for my New Year post. I shall leave you with one New Years Eve picture.....

"We bartenders will not fall! We p0wn'ed the drunkards!"